Karma and the horror of it.

Karma has it way of getting through me, I was shocked how it blows and left me wondering. Guys, these are not to be taken for granted. Karma is a system of beliefs that return the ‘favor’ back to you, so if bad out bad in and good out good in (but in some cases, you asked people to GET OUT they just keep on coming in). Ofcouse we’ll notice more on bad things happened, especially if you have something really (I mean REALLY) bad, then all of a sudden………

BLOW! Kicks in the head, you left paralyzed with eyes spinning wonder, wonder and wondering how on mother earth that you got in to this? Then some negative thought, creeps into your nervous mind swallowing all lights of positivism. Now your heart is the next target, dark cloud that clouded the mind of once reign in light slowly comes as it reaches the innocent hearts covering every inch of it like a dark hand grasping on a soft plum. “Help me GOD! Thou art my savior” these words of intuition rushed, you are suffocating, you can’t feel your legs, your vision narrowed and finally comes to total blindness. KABOOM! Faint. Then you pull yourself out of it, “astaga, turuk juga… nokuro kono terjadi baino diti, nunu nogi? Nokuro….” With head shooked against you palm.

God! It’s terrible isn’t? I have been experiencing some of this (crap!) quite sometimes, not that much but yeah, life is about doing things, so you might have done some of ‘this and that’ while you’re breathing, it could involve another being or living thing (so, cutting trees with greed is bad) and they could get injured in the process. So when karma strikes you started to think bout what have you done. That’s why when something happened we always said “what have I done? (or what have I done this time? Or come on god? Not again)”. Natural respond, come to think of it we have brains that monitors our behavior in life, it’s like a behavior bank (I know we’re about to have a DNA bank, so back to JPN but this time you’ll be giving some of your flesh instead of your picture. I don’t know if it’s good or bad. Funny countries are actually runs by comedians) and we use it to check as reference in some of the things returned to us. So it all makes sense now, the black cloud, horror explanation of what happened to your heart, everything is just a process of checking your behavior prior to what happened.

“Gila bah our brains this” (penampang style ni) it is so powerful that even scientist having hard times studying it. I even heard about ‘myth of the 10% brain usage and another 90% is a psychic potential ‘. Super! Now I can use it to enhance my ‘genjutsu’ skill and maybe some mangekyou sharingan. Anyways I feel like I need to remind myself on my behavior so I wouldn't get caught in a mess which I am part of it. Believe me guys; you don’t wanna spent even half of your day thinking that you have done something wrong even though you did. Hahahaha maybe next time I could learn how to deflect it “kasi tai chi sikit mah!” and if it works in the long run I’ll share some.

“In the long run, we are all dead” John Maynard Keynes (1883-1946).

Lastly - Happy Merdeka!! 31 Aug 1957 the Malaya independence -

Garnishing my words

Coffee stain on a paper, that’s what I got. I heard new places to go here in this wonderful borneo.
1. Meliau basin – tour trip about a week
2. Em’ bak canyon – 2 to 3 days trip
3. Danum valley – not know yet

Got few friends in the diving industry I bet I could clinch a lesson on diving and sets off to Mabul or Sipadan Island. This is what missing in life (garnishing the dish). Getting out of this disorganized life, funny thing is mistakes are only lessons in life (I hope this is true). Putting it in another way “there are no mistakes, just lessons to learn”, crappy stuff! Well my cousin is reading a book on motivation and as we tangle thoughts thru it I would say I was pretty motivated.
Recently I was going thru this economic textbook and hoping to find some answer about inflation, interest rates and others I was halted by some his phrases, then laughter came in. I can say that we (the whole family) laugh at each other a lot. Then I’m back to the economic thing, I’m actually hoping to make use of some economic knowledge for financial freedom (although I don’t have much burden in financial commitment but a lift off to wealth couldn’t harm us) I’m trying to understand investment other things that set you off traveling for the next winter. Hahahaha snow, I’m picturing it now, but first thing first getting some slice of the pie. So back to the interest rates which have a positive relation with investment (seriously, I’m reading economic textbook).

This week is something to be remembered as last year event, wasted! That’s the word for it. Perfect inch, it adds up to the disorganization of life (and my kitchen starting to smell). Here we are hanging around having fun had a lot to eat had a lot to drink, didn’t care about tomorrow and one morning you woke up you realized you’re earning lesser with bad breeze of dark aura. God spared the souls of broken men, everybody pissed! Even the person whom supposed to be pissed upon PISSED! But everyone have their rights to be in any mood regardless of their surrounding as long as he/she knows the consequences for their action. For me sitting there in the corner reading would be the best silent disguised (and act like nothing happened, my god this is going to take at least a week to be normal). Gosh, I got to alter my direction this ship has lost it course the captain got sea sick, navigation error is not acceptable technical error is okay. So Chop! Chop! Now, we got a ship to save and ai, ai, captain, GODSPEED!

Medals

So far so good, (so what, that’s megdeth) got one silver medal two which didn’t count for the medal tally, fuel price dropped and the USA women soccer team won gold. Speaking of the USA WNT, my words they’re beautiful, I really mean it watching Heather Mittz got me going crazy. Everytime I saw her on the tele I go “girlfriend!”, phew! That’s how a defender should play, and she looks gorgeous with the “sangul” hair style (it’s like a pony tail twisted into a ball like thingy, I didn’t know what it called) I was impressed by their performance no offence to the Brazilian team they are great too with much to offer it’s just too bad they couldn’t won it. But Heather Mittz! She makes my day, I’m head over heels, smiling.
Brazilian striker “Christine” is nor less with her beauty and athleticism, she’s just fantastic running with the ball, pure sports woman. I bet women are now more enthusiast playing football and I have no objection towards it (as long they have something to offer).
Before the women’s football final, Deutschland frauen fussball team got the bronze (uber alles deutsch!) too bad they couldn’t get the gold. As a world champion, they should have gone further. Non the less its still breath taking against Japan. Women’s football got nice balance of other countries, we can see America, Europe and Asia at their best. But for the frauen fussball………… Conny pholers, I just have 6 words for her “can’t take my eyes off you”. Germans are better athlete Kerstin Garefrekes especially, tall, runs like a dude and strong. While playing as unit i don’t think anyone does it better than the germans. Well they just didn’t have much luck then but until the next tournament.

Last congratulations to Misbun sidek and Lee Chong Wei on winning the sliver medal, we couldn’t give more support but what they have done is something unforgettable (the yelling in front of kids and tele) you have make your mark. I hope i’ll make mine too.

Strange Merdeka Month?

Here I am listening to ‘megadeth’ and the creepy thing is our city is running out of flags. Aren’t this are supposed to be merdeka month? But it’s probably merrier in the west side of Malaysia, so the people of borneo suddenly realized its better to celebrate on the 16th of September since it’s Malaysia day.

It’s strange here others would suggest celebrating on august and some would do on September. Like symphony of destruction tune goes “you put a mortal man and put him in control, watch him become a god”. Life is governed by something that I don’t have any clue, but I believed that the governors or the architects of ‘Life’ are responsible for some of our lives. We are born in a system, we have code, we have syntax, yet some of us are going against the system. Virus!

I have got to get out of this political avenue, it suited me bad, I’m no leader. I think people are ‘politicalized’ too much. Turn on tv what so we see? First headline? POLITICS! There’s more to life than this. Budu kan…. Nga amu obuli juga lari, we are governed. So enjoy your stay here at the system and let us enjoy searching for the perfect program to be with or to bite. It won't crash if we just a small part of it.

August..... merdeka day?

I’m singing ‘sabah’ state anthem in my head and came across with the end of it, what was it? ‘sabah negeri Malaysia or sabah negeri merdeka?’. Ironic, things like this we shouldn’t forget especially when you spent 11 straight years singing it in school (ok you could minus 2 years for being an ignorant).

I’m not a patriotic person, I’m not even myself at times but forgetting the state anthem, that’s serious. Imagine what could happened if I were to sing that song in front of a policeman, I could be charge of making a fool of the song or making a fool out of myself, worst off I could be exiled and the next thing I know I could be writing in the Philippine or Indonesia (but a lot of people said that I have this ‘tausug’ feature).

Anyhow its merdeka month and lots of people are busy with flags & stuffs, placing them on buildings & cars. Some might place it in front of the windscreen which blocks 25% of their view, yet they are trying to be patriotic (nothing wrong with it). Just don’t forget your state anthem and even worst your national anthem.